I've been pretty scattered lately. I really wish my defense mechanism to dealing with stress wasn't to completely stop functioning. It doesn't help my situation whatsoever. I need to start focusing and taking shit day by day. I'm eternally grateful for my few close friends that always seem to be there to help me pick up the pieces, but I'm sick of feeling like a fuck up. I need to get on top of my shit and get my life together. I keep on reassuring myself; I AM a good person, I AM intelligent, I DO have something positive to contribute to society, I CAN fucking do it. But I guess it's like they say, actions speak louder than words.
8.31.2008
procrastinating.
I have a million things I should or could be doing right now, but instead I'm sitting on my bed, listening to Weezer, drinking a Harvest Moon, and wishing it was fall. I want to walk down the street and hear the leaves crunch under my feet and feel the breeze through my hoodie. I'm done with the 90+ degree weather and ridiculous humidity.
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Hey girl, it's Steph! I added you to my blog list.
Anyway, I can easily say that I know what you mean about feeling like you're fucking up and doing nothing. Since I've moved to Texas that is exactly how I've been feeling! But knowing that you're going through it too makes me feel a little better. :)
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